Friday, June 15, 2012

What I miss most in life.

Today is a very special day.

It's a sad day.

But a happy one too, because it allows me to remember all the great memories.

Today is the day, two years ago, that my dad lost his battle with cancer.

He was an amazing man. Amazing.

Kind, gentle, smart, funny, ornery!!, compassionate, caring, and on and on.

He never took life seriously. Ever. He was always playing some joke, or laughing, or devising some new mischief to torment my mother or us kids.

He was great.

He was an Angel. In the sense that he showed up in my (and my mom's) life, in the middle of turmoil, and stuck by our sides till we made it through. He was there to bless our lives with his wisdom and kindness. And just when the turmoil had subsided, the Lord took him back to help other people.

I don't think......no, I KNOW I would not be the person I am today, if it weren't for him. He made me a better person. A kinder, more generous person. That appreciates life and all that it gives us.

I miss him so much it hurts.


All those pics he was pretty sick in. They were all taken, probably, in the last year of his life. Especially the last one, where just 20 days after that picture was taken at his 51st birthday party, he passed.

Here's what I wrote LAST YEAR about him. If you haven't read it before, it's a long one, but a good one. If you have read it, and want to re-read that long ass novel, then more power to you! I just re-read it myself and it made me cry all over again. But I think I really did a good job on describing how much he impacted my life. Everyone's lives, really.

I appreciated all your comments last year, and I'm sure all your comments this year will leave me with the same amazingly warm and loved feeling that last years did. Thank you all for the best support a chick could have!

Miss you Mike. You are gone but never forgotten.


17 comments:

  1. Tonight I'm going to have a drink to toast Mike. I'm so grateful that you had the years you did with him. My he Rest In Heaven!! Love you!

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  2. Hugs to you today. He sounds like a very special man. Love you!

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  3. I remember reading the post last year and crying big time at work. I'm going to wait til I get home to read it again. Thinking of you today! Big Hug!

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  4. I remember reading that last year. And I remember bawling my eyes out. I know it's hard...but know I'm thinking about you today, okay? Hugs!

    Sarah

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  5. I remember reading that last year. And I remember bawling my eyes out. I know it's hard...but know I'm thinking about you today, okay? Hugs!

    Sarah

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  6. You are an amazing woman BECAUSE he was an amazing man!

    (((HUGS)))

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  7. What a wonderful man. Thinking of you and will send a hug to you and to Mike's spirit today!

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  8. So cool how you are able to cherish the time you had, even if it wasn't as long as you wanted. He sounds like a great person!

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  9. ahhh what an awesome dad! to you!

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  10. awww laura-belle i am so sorry... hugs muffin xoxo

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  11. Thinking of you. I went back and read that novel ~ what a great guy! You are so lucky to have known him!
    Love the part about his "machines"!

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  12. I lost my mom to cancer 3 years ago and I keep wondering when it will get easier!
    So glad you were blessed to have a wonderful relationship with your dad. I know he's so proud of you!

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  13. I absolutely LOVE hearing the stories about him that you've shared!!!! I am happy you were able to find some quiet time to just "BE" this weekend. I've been thinking about you since yesterday morning...well, even before that. I marked it on my calendar so every time I've looked at it for a month now, my heart has been yours.

    I smile at the thought of him having met with my sister both arriving within a month of each other. <3 I don't think it gets easier, I think it just gets different for those of us still here.

    Thousands upon thousands of hugs!!!

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  14. You were in my thoughts all day and still now...always. I love you.

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  15. I found you last year RIGHT after you wrote your long post about Mike. Of course I love the picture with Wyatt with him, thank you so much for sharing with us.

    Love you girly.

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